I'm experimenting with starting my day differently today. I've been doing various non screen-related, "productive" tasks, like coiling the ropes on the back of my boat, sweeping the back of my boat, taking something to the recycling I'd been meaning to, and then sitting back and reflecting on how I feel after. I haven't ingested any food yet. I haven't been on the internet or my phone yet. I've had a little apple cider vinegar and a little water. I've un-made my bed, which is crucial because my bed is the main bench seat of my boat. I feel, so far...fine. I've had no caffeine yet. I felt a little foggy when I was walking around on the dock and to the recycling, but nothing extreme. I'm going to lie back and reflect instead of just looking at my phone at 8am like I usually do, starting the cycle of caffeine, GeoGuessr, YouTube, email, etc etc.
I'm starting to feel restless and like checking my phone is imminent, but I feel like if I check my phone it'll be all downhill from there. Will anything really come of it? Plans for this morning? Because that's the only decent reason to check it. I can't imagine any email in my inbox of any significance. I can't imagine anything on YouTube of any significance. I've put some apple cider vinegar treatment stuff in my hair, and some CBD lotion on various parts of my body, including all my fingers. I don't think it works. The only real anti-inflammatory is a good diet, that and maybe ibuprofen. The former is much more effective.
Of course, writing this blog is also an activity that needs to be taken into account, since it's influencing things. It can't be done in its own vacuum apart from the rest of my life. It will influence how I feel. I may feel PRODUCTIVE because of writing this blog, or I may feel useless, like it's not doing anything, like it's not written well. The only thing it won't do is have NO effect on my state of being.
I felt called to move my body a bit, to do a bit of "yoga," so there's that. Not really sure how it's affected my mood. Still haven't looked at my phone. Thinking of delaying that till 9am. Still haven't had any caffeine. Still haven't had any screen time except for this blog. Moved my body a bit. Have cleaned up a bit. Have read a bit. Time to sit back and reflect for a while, maybe even meditate. And then I'll come back here and report.
I don't know why I'm kid of "afraid" to check my phone. I think it has more to do with text messages I won't get than ones I will.
I took the walk. It required a mildly superhuman effort. I just walked to the top of the locks, not to the top of the hill. Now I'm back on the boat, reflecting but not lying down. The time for lying down is over. I don't want to feel sleepy.
I don't HAVE to look at my phone. I don't have to go to the grocery store. I don't have to drink caffeine. I don't have to be on this computer. I don't have to eat. I don't have to do much of anything, really.
I think I'm going to check my phone, mostly because it might mean that coffee with Hannah would be happening. And that would be nice. But that's it. No email. The diver up in the parking lot just started playing his bagpipes. I kind of love it this morning. We talked briefly last night about the sunset. My opinion of him immediately went from "loathsome creature" to "possibly tolerable human being."
There's an 8:56 message from Hannah. I'm listening to it now. I'm not going to recline.
I'm also going to take half a serving of my dietary supplement. And then reflect!!!
OK, I listened to the message from Hannah. It's about an hour later than when I started writing this blog. It's almost 9am, and I started writing this at about 8am. In that hour I've done a little cleaning on my boat, reflected a bit, taken a short walk, taken something to the recycling, written this blog entry, did some stretching, etc etc. Oh, and I also had a half serving of the dietary supplement for my stomach, of course. But now it feels like the rubber needs to hit the road. I'm probably meeting Hannah for coffee or something 930am or after. Which means I need to GET to Fremont to hang out with her. I have three options for this: bus, bike or car. If I left RIGHT NOW I could also walk. But I probably won't do that. that leaves bus, bike and car. I don't know if I feel like taking the bus. That leaves bike and car. Driving my car seems wasteful. That leaves bike. My tires are not nearly as inflated as I want them to be. I will have to keep checking my phone periodically to see if there are any messages from Hannah. My succulents, meanwhile, through all of this, have been perfectly still. They have not moved today nor will they move tomorrow. They'll be in the same place all day unless I move them. They'll bask in the sun if they have the chance, though it does look like the sun is coming out, so that's probably more like when they have the chance.
I am suddenly craving caffeine.
I need to reflect.
But I also want to put a video on youtube real quick.
UPDATE: Things are all jumbled now. I left the boat. I had caffeine (coffee!). I had a cinnamon roll. I hung out with Hannah. I hung out with Adriana. Ran around Greenlake. Downloaded a WILD app I didn't even know existed. Feel a bit strange now but just going to hang out on the boat and reflect. Maybe nap.
