Been a little while since I did a post, and I just wanted to write today to let you know how my experience being off caffeine is going. A week ago I didn't drink caffeine for a day, partly because I was a bit hungover and partly because I was going to a wedding I was a bit nervous about (social anxiety, dancing, etc). So I just didn't drink any caffeine that day, and the next was going to my parents on the island where I grew up and didn't really see a need to drink caffeine that day, either. Of course, at this point I was cognizant of how long I'd gone without caffeine, and figured if I could get through day two I had a solid chance of taking an extended break from caffeine.
Which brings me to today, more than a week later, still no caffeine.
Well, not ZERO caffeine, because I've had some chocolate, and chocolate has caffeine. Oh and I've also had kombucha, and that has trace amounts of caffeine.
Oh, and actually yesterday I did a coffee enema, and that probably had some--
I'M KIDDING, of course. Geez, chill.
(I'm sitting on my boat right now listening to CD's, by the way. I found a bunch of CD's at my parents house and am going through them to see which ones are worth keeping.)
(The song I'm currently listening to is "Smile Like You Mean It").
OK, so anyway, it's been more than a week without caffeine, and I currently don't have any plans to go back on it. That said, I don't really have plans to NOT go back on it. What I mean is: I'm just seeing how things go. Right now, I'm enjoying the caffeine-free life. But if that changes and I think there's a place for caffeine in my life, then I'll start drinking it again. Like maybe when I go to Mexico on Tuesday.
Why do I like not drinking caffeine?
Great question (decent question).
The answer is many fold, but mostly it boils (unless you're making mate, in which case it definitely doesn't) down to feeling more relaxed and less anxious. This "feeling less anxious" one is interesting, because it's not something I notice in a stark and apparent way, and at the same time it's definitely something I notice in a stark and apparent way. Like, I don't just sit around all day thinking, Damn, I feel chill right now. I'm so not anxious. But I DO notice it in lots of tiny facets of my life. For example, when I go to the island where my parents live, there are generally a lot of dumb tourists on the ferry, waddling like little fat ducks, no idea where they're going, like little fat blind ducks, waddling their way down the gangway to the boat. And normally this irks the shit out of me, walking behind these little fat blind imbecilic ducks, but when I'm not caffeinated, I just...don't really care. Like, I'm more focused on myself, but not in a self-centred way -- in a healthy way. Like, quit worrying about other people and focus on yourself. Like, you know?
Also, my sleep is better, and it's easier for me to fall asleep and take naps and sleep in.
And also the lack of anxiety.
The lack of anxiety.
The lack of anxiety.
The lack of anxiety.
Anyway, we'll see if I make it through another day w/o caffeine. It's already 9:22am so I'd say there's a good chance!!!
Great chance!!!
K bye.
